I dislike saying "I am trying to find myself" because my identity is not lost,
it just needs more uncovering. Luckily for me, what I love to do and
want to be helps me uncover more about myself.
I love to write, I may not going to end up a professional writer
but I will always write even if I am the only one interested in my work,
because writing is my self-reflection.
When I write, I sometimes get worked up into
such a fervor that I barely know what I am saying.
I just let my fingers fly over the keyboard
and the ideas pour from my head.
When I go back through the jumble of un-punctuated ideas,
I notice a theme running through the writing.
I don't try to put a moral in the theme but invariable it happens.
Evaluating the theme and the rest of the writing
helps me interpret my own character
and decipher my at times bottled-up feelings.
In opinion essays, my values show.
In stories, the fictional characters express my beliefs.
My experience and knowledge increase day by day
and I learn more about myself.
Each time I write what's in my head as honestly as I can,
another piece of the identity puzzle is revealed.
Mostly, I like what is unearthed. I am not worried that
I don't know everything about myself.
As I grow older, I'll figure it out.
